Thursday, March 24, 2011

Letter to no one

I want to write my ex a letter since he won't respond to my texts, but it's best that I don't. If I do then he will think that he still impacts my life in some way and that is not the case.

Dear Brad,
I just wanted to update you on what's been going on in my life since I left you.

I no longer live with my parents, I live with my boyfriend. He owns a house but it needs some work before we move in. He wants to take his time to fix it up so it's perfect and not just a house that's "move-in ready." He just replaced the roof this past weekend himself. His family helped him a little bit, they're really close. He has a big family that I love. He's letting me decorate everything in the new house. I even get a second room to use as a closet. I decided it will be my closet/the guest room. He even took my advice on what color to paint the house, but that will be one of the last things that he does.
He's a really great guy. He's not jealous, posessive, obsessed or clingy. He's financially responsible and stable, a hard worker, an undercover sweetheart and he trusts me. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with him. I know that I would love to.

Britni, Kristi and I are much closer. Britni and I got Kristi a pretty expensive flower arrangement for her birthday. I brought it into work (we work together) the day before her birthday and hid it in another office until she left for the day. Once she was gone I put it on her desk so that it would be there in the morning (her actual birthday) when she showed up. She was pleasantly surprised. They are my heterosexual soulmates. I don't know what I would do without them in my life. We agree that our friendship is more important than our other half. Our friendship will never fade like it did before. I think that was because I had moved away. Kristi moved away several years ago but she came back. This town has a way of sucking you back in, but I'm okay with that.

I believe that all of the bad things that happened to me (losing my job and ending our relationship) caused me to move back home but I think it was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. In result I have built an amazing friendship back up and found my true love. I believe that this is the happiest that I have ever been.

I just started school. I'm going to get a degree in Human Resource Management. I'm doing it online. I don't have the internet at home right now so I'm doing it at work, at my parents' house and/or my boyfriend's sister's house. We are getting satellite installed next month, he's paying for it so I can do my schoolwork at home.

I have had the same job since I moved back, it's been almost 5 months now. I have been working for a chemical plant through a staffing company. I just recently got a raise. I will be receiving another one soon when I become employed by the actual chemical plant. Once I get my degree I could actually use it to work here if I wanted.

I will be getting a new phone along with a new number next weekend. I don't want some people that have my current number to contact me any longer, plus I want to have the same area code as where I'm living so it won't be long distance for anyone to call me from a land line. You won't be getting the new number.

You still owe me $300+. You said that you would pay me almost a month ago but I never really believed that you would. And I was right in doing so, obviously. I can take care of myself financially so I never relied on you or had to. I was financially responsible when we were together, you actually borrowed money from me every week. You would pay me back just to ask to borrow money again the next day.

I know that you tried to tell my parents "why I got fired." I don't know what made you think that you could do that without me finding out. And I don't know what made you think that it would effect their feelings towards me. They don't care about what you have to say about me. I'm their daughter and they are going to love me regardless of what you say, truth or lies. I feel like you told them that so they would resent me and then not help me move. But like I said they're my parents and anything you told them wouldn't change their pre-existing feelings about me. All it did was make them like you even less. Fortunately it was the end of us so they didn't have to waste their time having to pretend to like you any longer. They were worried about my health because of the stress from our fighting.

I hope you live a happy and successful life, just as long as I am not a part of it.

1 comment:

  1. Dear Brad,

    I'm awesome. And you only brought me down. I'm awesome again and forever will be because you're gone.