My thinking was like this:
- It won't go anywhere and I'm okay with that.
- I think I might want something more but I know he doesn't.
- Okay I need to be patient but now he wants a relationship.
- We're together but I doubt it will last.
The only reason my dog, Ellie, is inside is because she's not fixed. I don't want her to get pregnant because there are enough dogs where we are living. Six total; two are mine and he doesn't have any. I told him that if Ellie was fixed then she'd be an outside dog but I didn't have the money to fix her and that if he wanted to pay for it then it would be a win-win. Well he had his sister call vets nearby that I hadn't checked with yet about their pricing and his brother's girlfriend called Adopt A Pet which ended up being the cheapest and very reasonable. He told me that he would pay to have her fixed if I helped him do some stuff at the house next door. So it's a deal!
The house next door belongs to his family but needs to be redone (about $10000 worth of work). He plans on putting all of the money and work into it and moving in. He started working on it this weekend. $2000 in and there's a new roof! Well since he started working on the house we have been using the words "us" and "ours" more often.
So I guess both of our issues have been solved or are on their way to being solved.
Somehow after this weekend I feel like things between us are more stable, more comfortable and I feel like it could last. I don't know that I've ever been this happy.